frustrATION frustrATION frustrATION.

So last night Andrew called and we talked for a little bit. He wanted to know what my parents thought of him so I just told him the truth about the stupid thing about the movie and stuff and then he started getting all bummed because he thought my parents didn’t like him. Which may be closer to the truth than I’d like, BUT they’re still letting him come down here and stuff, its just that my parents, mother especially, has to find SOMETHING wrong with EVERYONE. We decided next time he’ll bring barney and friends lol. Anyway I asked him what his parents thought about me and he just said they said I was pretty and seemed really nice. So THAT part’s good. But then he said as they were drivin home that they were talkin about how long of a drive it would be and stuff and he said he didn’t really say anything. He’s gonna try to come down this Saturday but I’m scared he won’t be able to. And I reallllly wanna see him…
Anyway when I got off the phone with him my mom was like…so what did you find out? She keeps buggin me about his spirituality and stuff, which is really important to me, but she’s not gonna like give me an AGENDA to check off. That’s ridiculous. And she was like, I just don’t see how a long distance relationship can work that well. I was like…we’re NOT in a relationship. we're just two people who are trying to get to know each other. And she’s like…well I seem to remember you telling me you liked him. Omgsh. Yea I LIKE him but we’re not DATING. I told her I was like…you can’t just rush this and try to make it be something it’s not. (not that she WANTS it to be something) but she wants to go ahead and put a label on it so she can make formal rules about dating or something and since we aren’t technically dating, I guess that’s killin her that she can’t make more limits for me. I mean we already can’t talk except for MAYBE every other day for pretty much no longer than 30 minutes and he can’t call past 9. Where does she really think this is gonna get her? I’m gonna be gone in less than a year…does she REALLY think she can still hold onto me? I remember her telling me ..we were talking about Vanderbilt and how people can’t bring cars because there’s no parking on campus and I was like..well if I go there, I’ll HAVE to take my car because I wanna be able to go home instead of depending on my parents coming down and BRINGING me home. And she was like well even if you DO take your car, I don’t want you just goin everywhere. I expect you to do just like you do here and I don’t want you goin somewhere without letting us know and ESPECIALLY not going out to DO anything unless you ask. Lol. I was like okay mom. I mean, would it really benefit me to get into that argument. Ha. Anyway. Its just stuff like that. Like what makes her think when I’m out on my own that I’m gonna still attend to her rules. I think she’s insane. Its just driving me crazy about this whole Andrew thing. Why can’t she just leave me alone? Yknow the smart thing to do here would be to back off and just observe how I’m dealing with this whole situation. Because, like it or not, I probably won’t change much if anything when I graduate, and THEN she won’t be there to even observe. She should see how I handle things without her interference because otherwise she’s gonna go crazy when I leave because she doesn’t trust me to actually be smart about things or something.. I don’t even know. I just feel like I’m gonna explode already and I havent even started seriously thinking about colleges. That’s when its REALLY gonna hit. Everythings just so overwhelming and she’s not helping a THING.